Start to finish to starting again? What's that?

I am frustrated.

I have a million things I want to do.
I have a ton of things I can do.
I have a hundred things I am doing.
But I have ZERO things I want to keep doing.

Is it a lack of motivation? I really don't think so. For it to be a lack of motivation I would be stopping at "a ton of things I can do" (meaning I have everything necessary to do these things but I won't even start doing them). But I am doing things, so I have motivation... I just don't seem to have the urge to keep on doing these specific things.

For example, I had this great idea to make appliques for Evie's clothes. I did three, then I stopped. I plan to do more... (story of my life), but I just don't LOVE doing it. They turned out so cute, they're not hard to do, and I have all the materials to do them... so why don't I love doing it?! Again... story of my life!

I seem to be inspired a dozen times a day to do these awesome things, and I start some of them, but I don't keep with it... what's wrong with me? Why can't I find something I love doing and just DO it and not go off on other tangents and do other things that distract me? I just want to have one thing to love doing and I want to do that thing! Plenty of people seem to get that lucky, so why not me? My father-in-law is a retired wood shop teacher, he loves making things... so he makes things all the time! He doesn't make a couple things and then never pick it up again. Why can't that be me?

I get all flustered cause I have so many projects buzzing in my head that eventually I just stop and sit down and get on the computer. Like right now. Here I am writing this blog when 15 minutes ago I was making something. I have a stack of cd's to use for crafting that I was going to make a circular mobile with to be hung around our dining room light (which is just a white circle). I was going to put two cd's together so the shiny sides are on the outside, wrap fabric around them (leaving some of the shininess poking through), and hang them in a circle at different lengths around the light. But for some reason once I got started, the idea didn't appeal so much to me anymore. I'm sure I'll force myself to finish it after I'm done with this blog. Yippee.

Then maybe after that I'll get out the sewing stuff again to make more appliques for shirts for Evie. After all, I have all the stuff I need to do it, so I should do it right? But isn't crafting supposed to be fun? I had fun at first... why did that go away? I shouldn't have to force myself to do fun things!

I don't know what I'm saying anymore. I just wish I had one thing I wanted to do forever that I would never get sick of doing.

The end.