Time to grow up.

"What do you want to be when you grow up?" Well, I'm definitely a grown up now. Turning 24 in just a few short days, and married with a child. But I do not want to just be a wife & mother forever. Not that there's anything wrong with that but it's just not for me.

I've completed my freshmen and sophomore years at UNR but had no direction at all. My transcript is full of random classes that add up to absolutely nothing (unless there's a major out there for diverse studies). Classes in music , creative writing, photography, interior design, philosophy, psychology, etc etc. Now it's time to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. Much easier said than done! I'm going to start at UTEP this summer and I'm thinking I should go with my favorite hobby of all... music. There are a few majors I can choose from: Performance, Music Education, and Theory & Composition. It's not my dream to be a performer, so we can nix that one. I've always been interested in becoming a teacher, though I always pictured myself teaching English or something, not music. Not to toot my own horn in any way but music has always been very easy for me, it just came naturally. So I'm not sure I'd have the patience to teach children who might struggle with what seemed so simple to me. Those who can't do, teach... right? So, those who can do, shouldn't teach? Hm. But who knows, maybe I would really enjoy it. Then there's theory and composition. This sounds more like my kind of area. I've written plenty of songs, though not for the violin, I've actually never tried to do that. I enjoy getting lost in music and writing and being inspired to create. However, will I really be able to make a career out of that? I try to make myself not worry about that, but in today's economy especially, its hard not to! I'd love to just go with my gut and do what I love, but is that practical? If I'm super motivated I could always go for a dual major, so I have more options. I could do Theory/Composition and Music Education or Theory/Composition and English... or...

That brings me to my next problem. Like I said, I would love to just go with my gut, but my gut is interested in a lot of things! How am I supposed to narrow it down? That's why I have a bunch of classes that get me nowhere. I feel like I have too many interests. I keep thinking as time passes and I grow up more, that what I should do will just come to me as if in a dream. That definitely hasn't happened yet and it probably never will. My interests include: music, english, interior design, photography, creative writing, advertising, teaching, psychology, and nursing (specifically, lactation consulting). Quite the wide variety eh? I'm really not good at Chemistry so I gave up on the nursing, but the last time I took a chemistry class I was an unmotivated 20 year old. I know I could do it if I really tried. Interior design and photography will always be interests and hobbies of mine but a bad career choice for a traveling Army wife. English and creative writing could bring a lot of career opportunities in the future, as there is a very broad spectrum of careers that involve good writing skills. I do enjoy writing. I took a creative writing class at UNR and thoroughly enjoyed it! Got an A and everything!

The more I try to think logically about coming to a decision, the more confused I get. I don't have the time or the money to go to school for 8 years and cover every interest I have, so I really have to narrow it down. But how? It is a major fear of mine to be stuck doing something I hate for the rest of my life. I know people who are in that boat, and I want to do everything I can not to hop on board.

So, Music? English? Nursing? Help!

Men vs. Women

My Grampy has been watching the US Open all day long recently, its some tennis competition (can you tell I'm not a huge fan? lol), and I was wondering why the heck women and men aren't competing against each other in sports these days. It never dawned on me before now. It's the 21st century for goodness sake! We very nearly could of had the first female president, yet we haven't mixed both genders in sports? Seems a little odd. It just demonstrates how the world still sees women as inferior to men because they're not as strong or quick (which is so not true!). Anyways, I just think it would be awesome to see men and women be equal in the world of sports =) Perhaps one day we'll see a woman get tackled at a football game.

Speaking of sports, I really wish Quidditch was a real sport. But magic would have to be real in that case... unless someone invents a flying broomstick. Clearly that needs to be pushed up to top priority in the world of technology.

Blogging?!

I honestly don't think my thoughts are really that interesting, so I don't think many people will read this. Writing things down just helps me feel like I'm doing something productive. It helps me organize my brain (and we all know how much Sara Jane likes to be organized!). Also, It allows me to realize things about myself that were previously unknown. I may start writing with a specific purpose, and by the time I finish, I close the computer with insight, optimism, and inspiration. It is a chance for relaxation when the little one is taking a nap. Though don't be surprised if blogs randomly cut off in the middle of a thought... as you can't always finish what you've started when you have a baby to look after =)

So... "Large Shoes for the Moon". Ya like? While living in Monterey we had word magnets and one day while staring into a full fridge with nothing to eat, I arranged these five words. I mean, the moon doesn't wear shoes, but if he did, they would certainly be large, right? I thought it would be a great band name, but since I am not in a band, a blog name seems like a suitable alternative. The name itself inspires me. And the picture to go along with it makes me feel dreamy (as in a state of mind... not like how I would describe Robert Pattinson in a word *wink*). If the moon did wear shoes, what would they look like? I'm picturing some red sneakers with bright white laces. Or maybe a pair of slip-on vans that he designed for himself and ordered off the internet (which by the way you can do here). They probably don't make his size though, poor guy.